So second time round and I thought I knew everything about parenthood but it's kind of nice to know it can still surprise me.
I completely forgot the tiredness you feel even when the baby has slept through the night and the fact that half the things I want to do in the day really don't have a hope in hell of getting done.
I remember smugly going off on maternity leave and saying about all the baking I was going to do, the house would be completely decorated by the end of the year(I've managed two rooms, high five to me), Me and Chloe were going to do crafts every weekend (not happened once yet, still hopeful for Christmas crafts though!!).
My hour long candlelit baths are a thing of the past as are my three times a week hair washes, to be completely honest leg shaving has even got knocked down the list (so happy winters coming so it won't matter as much) I've got into the habit of a quick shower and once a week washing my hair if I have time, my evenings are spent doing washing and I can't remember what it's like to be out at night unless it's to go to Asda or parents evening.
I was also surprised by how much I love her, this may sound strange but to be honest when I was pregnant I couldn't imagine how another child could possibly be as loved as Chloe is, I just didn't think it was possible at all but as soon as I had her there was that complete and total rush of love that you'll only ever feel for your children.
I'm amazed that after ten years of being a parent I still question my decision's, I feed on demand there's no way I would ever wake a sleeping baby to give them a bottle I firmly believe if they're hungry they will wake up, obviously my health visitor wasn't impressed with this at all, nor was he happy when I told him I'm going to start weaning at four months (this weekend is the start woohoo). To me, it seems cruel to let a baby take in so much liquid that they overflow, I just think it's much kinder to start giving them little spoonfuls here and there.
I'm amazed that parenthood is still terrifying to me, it is another tiny human being that will forever be a part of you, that you would defend to the death and envelope in love, their whole future can depend on how you raise them, the school you send them to, and the personality that you help develop.
Needless to say the constant changes of baby clothes, all my clothes being covered in sick, not having time to straighten my hair or paint my nails, developing the skill of doing everything one handed so I can cuddle Abbie to sleep (I'm typing one handed now), the constant rocking motion every parent develops so the can keep the baby calm, have all come flooding back to me.
All that being said I wouldn't change a thing about either of my girls and already I'm feeling broody again so hopefully in a couple of years I can read this back so I'm less surprised by it a third time round.
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