PARENTHOOD SURPRISES

So second time round and I thought I knew everything about parenthood but it's kind of nice to know it can still surprise me. 

I completely forgot the tiredness you feel even when the baby has slept through the night and the fact that half the things I want to do in the day really don't have a hope in hell of getting done.

I remember smugly going off on maternity leave and saying about all the baking I was going to do, the house would be completely decorated by the end of the year(I've managed two rooms, high five to me), Me and Chloe were going to do crafts every weekend (not happened once yet, still hopeful for Christmas crafts though!!).

My hour long candlelit baths are a thing of the past as are my three times a week hair washes, to be completely honest leg shaving has even got knocked down the list (so happy winters coming so it won't matter as much) I've got into the habit of a quick shower and once a week washing my hair if I have time, my evenings are spent doing washing and I can't remember what it's like to be out at night unless it's to go to Asda or parents evening.

I was also surprised by how much I love her, this may sound strange but to be honest when I was pregnant I couldn't imagine how another child could possibly be as loved as Chloe is, I just didn't think it was possible at all but as soon as I had her there was that complete and total rush of love that you'll only ever feel for your children.

I'm amazed that after ten years of being a parent I still question my decision's, I feed on demand there's no way I would ever wake a sleeping baby to give them a bottle I firmly believe if they're  hungry they will wake up, obviously my health visitor wasn't impressed with this at all, nor was he happy when I told him I'm going to start weaning at four months (this weekend is the start woohoo). To me, it seems cruel to let a baby take in so much liquid that they overflow, I just think it's much kinder to start giving them little spoonfuls here and there.

I'm amazed that parenthood is still terrifying to me, it is another tiny human being that will forever be a part of you, that you would defend to the death and envelope in love, their whole future can depend on how you raise them, the school you send them to, and the personality that you help develop.

Needless to say the constant changes of baby clothes, all my clothes being covered in sick, not having time to straighten my hair or paint my nails, developing the skill of doing everything one handed so I can cuddle Abbie to sleep (I'm typing one handed now), the constant rocking motion every parent develops so the can keep the baby calm, have all come flooding back to me.

All that being said I wouldn't change a thing about either of my girls and already I'm feeling broody again so hopefully in a couple of years I can read this back so I'm less surprised by it a third time round.

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40 weeks pregnant, pissed off and feeling ranty

So I am officially 40 weeks pregnant and so completely ready to have this baby now, I feel like I've done my part I've kept her safe and warm, fed her, rested while also keeping active, I've dealt with the aches, pains, sickness, dizziness and tiredness that goes hand in hand with being pregnant, I have got through working in an already hot kitchen in a heat wave and now I fully feel I deserve to go into labour and have a baby to snuggle and love and bring home to be part of our family.
Yes, I have been lucky my pregnancy was an easy one, there is a lot of women I know that would have loved to have it so easy but now I'm impatient and so completely over it.
This hasn't been helped by the fact that I honestly thought labour was starting last Thursday and it turned out to be a false alarm, seriously such a tease!!!

So many people have said just enjoy the rest while you can, but I wasn't made to rest and do nothing I finished work 6 days ago and it already feels like I've been off forever, there are so many other things I could be doing like painting the hall, sorting out the playroom, doing the gardening,but no one will let me as soon  as I get the mop out to do the floor you would think the crime of the century had been committed, and as much as I know people are doing it because they care, it is driving me mad, I know my limits I know how I feel in myself and know how far I can push myself before I need to stop.
Women decades ago certainly didn't let a little thing like being pregnant stand in the way of their daily lives, they didn't stop looking after the brood of children they already had, while probably doing a little cleaning job on the side, whilst cleaning their whole house every day, so when the hell did society get so pathetic as to think pregnant=weak?

The other very annoying thing is my husband coming home from work every day and saying without fail "any changes?no twinges? oh well, maybe tomorrow!" I know I should be grateful for him asking but does he not think I might get in touch with him in work if I thought labour had started????

I'm fully aware I sound like a right moaning cow in this post and honestly I know how lucky I am, I know the unbelievable happiness I'm going to experience when my little lady finally makes an appearance but I really am feeling cranky, uncomfortable and I just want to meet her and it will be very nice to be able to put shoes and socks on without it feeling like a massive workout.

I'm going to take my sulky arse to bed now and hope that labour will start in the night, hopefully, my next post will be perkier and will have photos of my baby instead of my belly!!

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PREGNANCY UPDATE- 30 WEEKS PREGNANT

So I am finally nearing the end of my pregnancy and I could not be more excited to meet my little lady.

I have my hospital bag stuff ready to go I just need to put it in a bag and by the front door, My clothes aren't fitting too well anymore so pj's are my new best friend (as you'll see by the photo at the end).

On the upside my belly has now grown enough to make my boobs look smaller woohoo!! my hair has grown so much and my skin is the nicest it's been for a lot of years.

Down side is I am stupidly tired all the time which means I'm generally in bed at 9 and enjoying naps on my days off from work, I've started getting some nausea again but nothing like the morning sickness I had at the start.

I'm hoping I'll have the nursery ready in a couple of weeks so photos of that will follow as well as the crafty things me and Chloe have been making ready for the new baby.

As for the baby she is a little wriggler especially when I'm in the bath she's or after I've eaten, she is growing well and the midwife is very happy with her growth and development.

I finish work in 9 weeks and I'm really looking forward to it, working in a hot kitchen for long hours is starting to take it's toll now.

So that's it for now but I will post another pregnancy update in 5 weeks and then at 40 weeks then hopefully my girlie will be here and I can introduce her to you.

Here's my bump I don't think I'm overly big for 30 weeks but it's really starting to pop now.